First of all, thank you for so many kind, thoughtful comments about my decision to retire the blog. The comments some of you made honestly made me tear up, and it's a great feeling to know that this blog has been so meaningful to readers and that it will be missed.
Your comments were so moving, that I'll be honest: You filled me with self-doubt about this carefully considered decision, and all weekend, I wrestled with the should-I-stay-or-should-I-go dilemma. Jerry was no help in figuring it out (in fact, when I'd discussed my decision to quit blogging a few weeks before I announced it on Friday, his only response was: "I've heard you say that before"), telling me only: "The blog is yours; this is YOUR decision."
Ah, shark farts, why couldn't I have a husband who just told me what to do?! It'd require a lot less thinking on my part...
...in the end, I decided to make myself an old-fashioned pro and con list. I'd made several mental lists before posting Friday's post about #2000, but I hadn't sat down with a concrete list to help me perhaps make a more rational decision. Here, I'll show you what that list looked like:
1. I like it.
2. It gives me a near-daily writing outlet.
3. I like having a concrete sense of readers and commenters. That makes the writing feel satisfying.
4. I like the people who blog and who comment here.
5. Some bloggers have been my "friends" for years, and I'd hate to lose that part of our connection.
6. It gives me a way to provide a record of the kids' childhoods.
7. It gives my running accountability.
8. It challenges me: In my running and in my writing.
1. Sometimes, I don't like it: It can feel like an obligation.
2. I have wondered over the years if because I blog, and it helps fulfill some sense that I'm writing, that it keeps me from truly pursuing writing.
3. Readers and commenters have been dwindling in the last few years. According to analytic data, this blog peaked about 3 years ago in readership.
4. It sucks to know that the blog's popularity has declined in the past 3 years, but you know what else declined in the last 3 years? My spare time, and thus the time I used to take to read others' blogs and cultivate the blog-relationships it takes to maintain high readership.
5. Many of my blog friends are now also my friends on FB and DailyMile, so I know that leaving here won't mean that I'll lose those contacts (and if you're not my friend on either of those sites, you CAN be! email me: tygress422 at yahoo dot com and I'll totally friend you if you promise not to ax-murder me in my sleep).
6. The blog is in desperate need of a makeover. The whole appearance needs to be re-done, but re-vamping the site feels overwhelming. And, then there are all the questions of...should I even stay with Blogger? Or move to Wordpress or Google+?
7. I can keep other records of the kids' childhoods without them being a public record. I sometimes fret over the kids' lack of privacy.
8. Through other mediums (DailyMile, for instance), my running can still maintain its accountability, so I don't need the blog to do that anymore.
Ugh...the totals came out even! Don't you hate it when that happens?
So, what did I decide about the ultimate fate of the blog?
Well, I thought about sadistically keeping you in suspense. But that seemed mean, so I'll tell you now:
It's still BUH-bye.
For now. Perhaps I will be back after some time off, or perhaps I'll just periodically check in, I don't know, but for now, I definitely need the time away if, for no other reason, than to perhaps give myself enough time to miss it.
Goodbye won't be until this upcoming Saturday, the 21st -- as promised -- so stick around this week for the reminiscing.