Tomorrow is the start of the school year here. Back to work for me and the kids will be not only changing their school schedule, but they'll also be changing schools.
The daycare/preschool we've attended since Norah was 10 weeks old is closing. We got notification of its closure last spring, and it was emotional news for us, and it wasn't easy scouting out new places and finding a center that best suited all of our expected needs. In the end, we found one that we feel is the best fit for our family, but really, it's hard to entirely know until we get into the groove of having the kids attend.
For those who know us, or who have been reading for awhile, you know that even though I'm a full time professor, I've managed for the past 3 years to work out a teaching schedule that has allowed me to stay at home every day for half the day during the academic year. I've appreciated this schedule in many ways, but it hasn't been without its difficulties too: In order to be home half the day, I've had to to teach 2 night classes each term (I actually enjoy night class students -- they tend to be a more mature group -- but those teaching days tend to be exhausting); plus, there have been other small hurdles. For example, when I've been sick or when I've had meetings, we have either had to pay the drop in rate at school ($20 an hour for the 2 kids) or Jerry has had to take time off to be at home when I can't be.
So, for several reasons -- the new school's available scheduling, a need for me to keep a more "regular" work schedule, and the idea that both kids may benefit from a fuller day at school (Norah, especially, is at an age where she can get more out of the curriculum if she's there all day) -- the kids will be attending school full time and I'll be working more normal Mon-Fri hours. Although, that being said, because I have the sweetest gig out there, my full-time-normal-hours are still just 6 hours a day, so I'll be dropping the kids off between 8:30-9 and picking them up around 3:30.
By many working moms' standards, that's hardly a "full" day's schedule, so I know I am still extremely fortunate to have the kind of full-time career that I do that also allows me so much time at home.
Anyhoo, what I'm circling around to, is that tomorrow is a new start for me and for the kids. New school for them, new schedule for all of us. And even though I think it will be best for all of us, I am feeling the typical mom-separation-anxiety-emotions about this new start.
I imagine the first week or two will be a bit of an adjustment -- on the practical end and on the emotional end. Practically, I am gonna have to get us all out the door around 8:15-8:30, which is a change for us who've been used to lolly-gagging all morning long. Plus, the new school doesn't provide lunch, so I'll be making lunches each day too. Blergh. Emotionally, Caleb will cry each day, for sure; Norah will likely be cool with everything for a week or so and then have a complete meltdown once she realizes this new school is for good; and I will most likely cry in my car after dropping them off for the first week or so -- but then we'll all get settled and I think the year will go smoothly.
So that's what's on my mind today.
One bright, shiny thing to look forward to, however, is that with my new schedule and more time each day on campus, I have more time to run. Granted, that'll mostly be treadmill running, but hey, running is running! And, I need the running. This week, I'm gonna top out at less than 30 miles for the week, and I can tell that my brain has gone soft on me: I've been making all kinds of emotionally charged decisions the past few days that have been questionable. If I were running more this week, I might've just run past those thoughts; instead, I went ahead and expressed them.
Definitely need more running.