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Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Unexpected Emotion

Yesterday, I got out of the house to run a few errands on my own. It was the first time that I have been by myself in a week, and at first, it felt really good to have some time to myself outside the house (even if I was going to the dreaded grocery store), but then as I was driving, I had the strangest feeling: loneliness.

It occured to me when The Yeah, Yeah, Yeah's song "Zero" came on the radio. I turned it up and thought, "Yeah, Norah, we like this song, don't we?" Only to suddenly realize that she was no longer inside me, and I was entirely by myself in the car.

I didn't expect to miss pregnancy, but in that moment, I did. Needless to say, I rushed through my last errand (picking up pics from Walgreens), and got home to Jerry, Norah, and Scooter as soon as I could.

28 comments:

Jamoosh said...

OK, yeah - You REALLY need a beer!

HEATHER said...

awww :)

teacherwoman said...

I can only imagine.

Amy W said...

This was the most honest post I have read in a long time. I love your blog.

MN Mom said...

Remember she still needs you just as much as ever-but now daddy gets a chance too. So enjoy your moments away knowing she is being held in daddy's strong arms until mommie gets home.

MCM Mama said...

Don't worry, you'll get over that emotion. Just kidding. ;o)

There are still times now when I miss pregnancy and the first few months. Thankfully, I've figured out I miss my pregnancies with my boys and am not wishing to do it again.

TNTcoach Ken said...

I know, those damn kids! Wait until you start watching certain movies.......

RunnerGirl said...

I was just telling my hubby yesterday that as much as I'm ready for our baby boy to get here, I'm going to miss the "closeness" of being pregnant. It won't be socially acceptable to talk to my belly anymore :)

Crystal said...

Aaww, that's so cute :)

N.D. said...

awwww... that happened to me as well.

Erin said...

There is a little separation anxiety that takes place on those first outtings. I remember wanting alone time but missing Miller the whole time. Wait until your first night out with Norah being watched by us (or another sitter). Talk about emotions! It's all normal. You guys are doing great.

Wife, Mommy, Runner said...

It's still like that for me...Andrew is almost 2! It means you are a great mom!

Lisa Slow-n-Steady said...

awwwwwww

Steve Stenzel said...

That's cute!

I just got caught up looking at the last couple of posts - CONGRATS!! What a cutie!!

Heather said...

I had that same feeling shortly after Sophie was born while I was taking a shower. It is an adjustment after such a long time of being pregnant.

Neese said...

aw

Carolina John said...

it was 3 weeks before kelley would leave our first one alone with grandparents for more than the length of time it took her to pee.

remember it took your body 9 months to get out of whack hormonally, and it will take 9 months to get back to normal. during this time your emotions will be all over the place. Accept it and you will come to appreciate it.

Wes said...

The subtlety of life's changes. Isn't it amazing!

X-Country2 said...

Awww, you're so cute. :o)

Marlene said...

Very sweet.

I'll bet the three of them were just as excited to have you back home.

Tri Dave said...

Just think... Now when you talk to her she can answer back. At least in baby-speak for a while.

Jena Simms said...

Girl, this make me cry. I am sending my 6th, 4th, and 1st grader off the school Monday. No, this lonely feeling never leaves you when you are without your babies.

Krissy said...

I often wonder how it is going to feel without the baby in me too...I know it will be an adjustment for sure. All the emotions of being a mommy are crazy!

Bonni Michelle said...

I had the same reaction after Allie was born, she is now four months old and I still miss having her with me all day long.

Shannon said...

I remember feeling those "empty" days too.

Nicole said...

I feel like the first few weeks post-partum you go through a grieving stage or something. I know I grieved for my pregnancy, my old life, etc, etc. It does get better and soon enough you will be relishing that alone time!

Viv said...

The walks with Norah and Scooter sound like just what the Dr ordered. I can not believe you are 5 lbs. from pre preggo weight! Will you totally be mad if I said bitch in the most loving envious way ;-) Hope the first day home solo went well.

sRod said...

Yeah. Come back to this post in three months.