I feel like my running in the past month has been hit-and-miss.
One week, I'll run every other day and fit in a solid 3-4 days of running. Then, in the next week, I'll maybe manage 1-2 days of running -- and, it'll be without pattern or routine.
I would like to be more consistent, but because I'm not training for anything, and because I don't have any defined goals regarding running during pregnancy, that means I essentially go by how I feel each day. And if I feel like running? Great! if I don't? Screw it. Who cares? And I walk or do my prenatal yoga DVD instead.
The disciplined runner in me feels like this inconsistency is unacceptable, but the preggo in me says, "Meh. I do what I can."
Both today and yesterday were "meh-screw-it" kinda days.
Monday's reason for choosing to walk instead of run? Well, does Monday really need a reason? Yeah, that's what I thought too.
Tuesday's reason for making the same choice? I'm tired. Ti-ti-tired.
See, I have night class on both Mondays and Thursdays, so on those evenings, I don't get home until about 9:30 pm. Then, I usually eat something, catch up with Jerry, sneak a peak in at Norah, and hit the sack. So, even though I'm usually in bed by 10:30, nagging Jerry to turn off his reading light and read in the dark, I still don't feel as though I sleep enough, or sleep well enough on these nights.
I have a tough time settling down, mentally, and counting my Zzzz's doesn't come easily, and then I always have restless classroom dreams, and such restless dreaming usually means I wake up throughout the night more frequently, and when I wake up, I gots to pee. You see the cycle, right? I "technically" slept for 8 hours, but really, I feel like I didn't sleep much at all, and thus, on a Tuesday like today, I feel like I belong in "Dawn of the Dead."
So, yeah, that's my reason for not running this morning, and why I currently feel as though I could crash out now and potentially sleep straight through until tomorrow morning. Which means, I probably won't make it much past Norah's bedtime tonight!